For the past year and a half, I’ve been taking photography courses and working part time. But starting Monday, I will be back in the swing of full time work (unrelated to photography). This means my days of sitting on the sofa or at my computer blogging, editing, and watching hours upon hours of shows, movies, videos via Netflix, Hulu Plus, my DVD collection, and YouTube are over. So, I’ve decided to make a Kodak moment of this time in my life, for I will probably never do it again.
A typical lunch would be Ichiban ramen. I added bok choy to this batch and was watching “Save The Last Dance” with Julia Stiles and Sean Patrick Thomas. It isn’t one of my go-to movies, and after a few years of having not seen it, I was reminded of how important it is to face diversity head-on, take a chance on yourself, beat the odds, open your heart, and fight for a life worth fighting for. (Yes. I got all of those messages from this one MTV movie).
During this time I’ve learned that I can handle photography as a hobby, and not much more than that. That making art is a lifestyle I wanted to flow in and out of, and not necessarily live and breathe. I recognize that I have too many inhibitions. But that’s okay to me. At least I know this.
But I haven’t given up on myself. Far from it, I think I’ve gotten a clearer understanding of what I want from life. My dreams are not what I thought they were. I think I’ve romanticized a lot of them. It’s as if I took on a life I should’ve started in my 20s, but did it in my 30s and realized I don’t have the energy or drive like I would have back then. And, most importantly, my life isn’t just my own. I share it with another person, and my goals have become our goals in the best sense of the idea.
So, I say goodbye to midday screen time. It was a wonderful run. Full of laughter, tears, excitement, and joy. Goodbye to good company. Namely, the Crawley’s of Downton Abbey, Shawn and Gus and their psychic investigations, the women of the Joy Luck Club, the chauvinistic men of Mad Men, and more. I could not have gotten through this period of my life without them.